Category Archives: Breast Cancer

PET Scan a.k.a. Pure Emotional Torture

About two weeks before my PET scan, I found myself sitting on the floor, in the corner of the living room, my arms hugging my drawn up knees, tears streaking down my face. I didn’t want to go get a scan and get bad news. Again. I didn’t want to die. I lay awake at …

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The 5-Hour Brain Tumor

“So, have you noticed anything different about your eye?” My breast cancer oncologist asked, peering at my left eye with interest. The same eye that had cancer not even a year ago. It was around noon on a Tuesday, two days before my last chemo was scheduled. “No, why?” I asked perplexed and then rushed …

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Creepy Crawley Panic Attacks

They come at the most unexpected times. They slide in like an unwanted note under the door, like a tide coming in too soon, like a swarm of bees on a mission. They make my heart beat faster and faster. They fill my stomach with their poison so I don’t eat. They close up my …

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Body Changes: Who’s That Girl?

It’s easy to dance with pink gloves and make notorious videos if you don’t have to look at your bald self in the mirror, wishing you could put eye make up on but not doing so because you are worried the last few eyelashes and signs of femininity will disappear down the drain. Yeah, that …

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Side Effects: Somebody Must Want You Up There

“Somebody must really want you up there.” Said my cab driver as he looked upwards and rolled his eyes towards the sky. I tried to smile politely meeting his eyes for a microsecond in the rearview mirror. I was on the way home from the hospital, just having received a white blood cell forming booster …

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